The meaning of some childhood events with their accompanying thoughts and feelings are just now beginning to come clearly into focus. That in itself is fascinating. I can feel myself around six years of age quivering with emotion and shock while I’m thinking…it doesn’t have to be like this, it shouldn’t be like this…why are you doing it like this?
When Tina the mother would act reprehensibly in my child eyes, usually by physically beating on a childs body, not always but mostly my own, I would see/feel/think how different the scenario might/could play out.
Now as an adult I see that I started channeling/hearing my higher self or oversoul at that young age as a knee jerk save yourself from doing a header response to a dire situation. In other words, I heard a soothing angel like voice in my head telling me quite clearly that what was happening would not always be so, should not be so. As a child I interpreted that information within the confines of a childs understanding of the world. It was because I knew that such (specifically corporeal punishments) need not be so that I was able to suffer through the painful chaos of childhood. I aimed myself toward being a grown up who wouldn’t do what was being done to me.
Blessed are the children like me who had a ruler sitting on their school desk for eight years that said “DO UNTO OTHERS AS YOU WOULD HAVE THEM DO UNTO YOU”.
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2 comments:
Ohyes!
How we "survived" our childhood experiences and yet to come forth and honor them is truly amazing:)
I saw your post "hi everybody" and wow, Anne how you slipped that one in under my radar:)
It is truly like seeing the mirror with the "polished" finish, from my end:)
I really enjoyed our conversation, last night, I found, even though; my dreams, once more were vivid to me, my sleep was more deep and relaxed then in moments past:)
Love You!
Tim
Hi Anne,
How clear the intentions of a child can be when adults don't impose their "ways", ways that can stunt Spiritual growth, douze the spark of discovery, curiousity, inventiveness that is such a blessing in a child's world.
It's serendipity that (unbidded) can come on the wings of Angels to comfort and re-assure. Beyond names and expectations this Force has i can see, inspired you dear Anne in your childhood trauma, giving you a "grown up" sense of hope on how things really ought to be in life.
How marvelous the ways of Spirit!
Love to You,
John
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