How Are We Feeling?

I'm feeling larger than myself,and awkward with the cumberssome new size. The sensation has a more metaphysical aspect/sensation than a physical one. I have felt it was the result of the general awakening and energizing that is happening with the Planet and her inhabitants. Last night while playing with the feeling I pushed to see if I could find the end of me. In a few short seconds I felt myself so huge so fast I was vaguely physically nauseated by the experience. I let go the expanded version of self and was immediately comfortable. I played further, expanding for slightly longer each time before receding at the slight discomfort. I slept like a baby afterward.

A wordlessness and an ability to drop into meditative daydreaming states has accompanied this expanded feeling in size. I have long felt and been able to consciously manipulate my auric body to some degree. When my last son was born I had developed an understanding of reality that allowed me to communicate with him via eye contact and the movement of my auric body. If he started fussing as a baby because he was hungry, I had only to intend to feed him and he would be quieted.

The confirmation (for myself) of my ability to consciously manipulate my auric body was a serendipitous event. When I had the opportunity to have my picture taken via Kirilian photography in 1988 I had only to look at the people around me in the crowd at the psychic fair, and their photos, to jump at the idea. (I was then and remain convinced from what I saw in pictures and from my own intuitive readings of many of the people that day that over consumption of alcohol dead-ends or diminishes one’s aura.) When it was my turn with the photographer I began saying my favorite prayer while he fussed with his equipment. Instead of only smiling on the outside, I had decided to play with it and see if the prayer I was saying that made me feel good would show as a smile on my inside.

It was more serendipity that misplaced the picture that was taken that day. The colors of my aura were not only beautiful, with a well balanced representation of colors I found very attractive, its size had not been completely captured and it was chopped off at the top of the photograph. I felt it proved that I had been able to expand my aura larger than the photographer usually captured around people. The psychic doing the readings of the photographs confirmed what I knew, she had words for my feelings.

After seeing that picture I often played with babies when the opportunity showed itself in public, under sixteen months were the most responsive, by pushing what I thought of as white light out the top of my head with a love note attached. Parents in restaurants were inevitably amazed to have their child giggling and radiantly returning my wordless interest in them.


It seems natural to ask myself how we are feeling, a clear indication of feeling larger than one. I envision myself as a Doulas of Peace holding a peace bubble under my shirt...like a metaphysical pregnant belly. This sensation is abetted by the ten pounds that I've gained in the two months since I walked away from thirty six years of slavery to a nicotine addiction.

P.S. Here's a good source of information about our metaphysical journey...
http://www.reconnections.net/index2.htm