At a place in my life when I worked six sometimes seven days a week I had plenty of money to spend. I was also unhappy. This had happened with money and I before, though I didn’t make the connection then. As a young dancer I made money and was unhappy.
This time it was more socially acceptable. I owned and operated a furniture business, became President of the local Chamber of Commerce, owned my home and was raising three boys alone. I was fiercely private about my intimate relationship with a man many years younger and even more private in an alcoholic and pharmaceutically addicted social milieu about smoking marijuana.
One ordinary day at the store, I am bored as usual by the tedium of shop keeping and have been sitting reading a good book hoping nobody would come in. When one woman customer came through the door I guiltily lay the book down and went to help her. She’s wasn't local and it’s was soon obvious I wouldn't be making a sale. Our conversation was amenable though and we spent half and hour chatting.
I have always been one to speak of matters of the heart. Small talk is boring. I don’t remember what I said that prompted this stranger to share intimate details of her life but my response to her I will never forget. I told her this is a prayer that has and will continue to change my life and I launched into a heartfelt recitation of “I am the Master of my Destiny.” by Lobsang Rampa. I was a bit stunned when I finished realizing how far outside normal social discourse I had taken us. Her smile and request that I write that prayer down stilled the pounding heart while I wrote it out.
Over the years since then I have recited and written this prayer out more times than I remember. I thought I would tell this story before I share the prayer once again.
To My Oversoul I pray,
Keep me free from evil thought, keep me free from the blackness of despair. At the time of my misery shine a light into the darkness that enshrouds me.
Keep my every thought good and clean. Keep my every action for the good of others. Keep my thoughts pure that my mind may be strengthened thereby.
I am the Master of My Destiny. As I think today so I will be tomorrow therefore let me avoid all thoughts that cause distress to others. May my spirit arise within me that I may succeed easily at the tasks that lie ahead. I am the Master of my Destiny. So be it.
May the Dimensions gracefully coalesce within us,
Blessed be
Anne
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