Swimming in the Ecstasy of Creation

"Earth is a smooth pond which is imprinted by and reflects the web of planetary influences, as soft putty carries the imprint of a gently-pressed finger. We humans are as water spiders on the surface of the pond, weaving into physical form the web that we see and feel reflected from above. There are reflections also from the sand on the bottom of the pond which are felt and woven on the surface, and in this way the stars hear not only their own echo from earth, but the music of Gaia's own sphere intermingled with their sweet symphony. Incarnate humans thus can be the creators of a heavenly web on the spherical surface of the earth, attuned simultaneously to the above and below, swimming in the ecstasy of creation. "
~Patrick MacManaway

Why the Resistance to Meditation?

Every spiritual teacher, from the IChing to living masters whose wisdom I have imbibed have counseled meditation. Those words always felt like an admonishment. When I began meditating on a daily basis it was with the help of the Vessels of Peace meditation circle. Over the years a meditative practice developed that I depended on. What I didn’t understand and questioned was the resistance to meditating that would show up, sometimes for months at a time, when it was time to meditate.

A string of events has brought what feels like an answer to my inquiry about some of the resistance. As I stood in a circle of locals gathered in front of the village store, I realized something had shifted in me. When a moment of silence descended on the conversation I remained silent and comfortable. For most of my life when a silence would open up, whether between two or twenty people, I would step into clown or entertainer mode to hide/deal with my anxiety. That ordinary moment became extraordinary, if only for me, when I noticed how comfortable I was with that silence.

This year I have been examining the discomfort and fear about being in silence myself, as well as in the company of quiet people. Today a window into the past opened as I wondered that took me back to childhood…where else? I was coming into the house after school. It was quiet, eerily so, and that quiet often meant an angry explosion was fermenting. I went into an eight year olds idea of crisis management and started being silly trying to get Mom to laugh. It worked once and a belief and habit for life was formed. That wasn’t the end or beginning of the forming of fear around silence, not by a long shot. I heard those lethal words, “be quiet”, ”sit still”, “shut up”, “children are meant to be seen and not heard”, and more all echoing down the timeline at once until I was the adult and they were coming out of my mouth. I remembered feeling sullen silence used as a weapon, a bad vibe between Mom and Dad. It is no wonder I felt I was being admonished when I was counseled to sit in silence and meditate. That statement was a trigger and the child in me would feel she was being told to go sit in the corner and be quiet and think about what she’d done. Silence as a punishment.

Last evening, after many concentrated hours of light body work I found myself energetically depleted. Options passed through my mind, go for a walk, take a hot tub, curl up with a book. It was my body that took me to my meditation spot. I followed, resistance free and loving it and returned with a sense of having been nourished and loved in the only way that truly serves, by myself the Mother.

May your New Moon intentions ride the waves of manifestation through this moon cycle!

Just Pretending

Once upon a time an old soul, after much deliberation, decided to return to a physical vessel on Planet Earth. The old soul chose to come into a female vessel. Her name would be Gloria. So it came to pass and there was much joy at her birth. She was a beautiful well loved newborn child.

Days, weeks, months became years and she grew into a young girl. Gloria had the feeling that something wasn’t right in her world, she often had the feeling that life wasn’t supposed to be like this. On the inside she felt perfect and cared for but more and more on the outside things weren’t supposed to be like this. This was in fact painful, with some days more pain filled than others.

As a baby Gloria had heard and loved when her Mother crooned to her about how beautiful and perfect and loved she was. It came as quite a shock the first time Gloria was told she was a bad girl and that she should be a good girl. How could she be good when she was already perfect? Being told everyday that she was a bad girl didn’t convince Gloria that she was a bad girl. In the quiet, alone outside under a favorite tree, Gloria always knew and felt she was perfect and loved.

One day Gloria was caught red handed being her perfect and loved self when she was being punished for being her bad self. Thunder and lighting and screaming and yelling broke out. That was when she knew it would be helpful if she at least pretended some of the time that she was a bad girl and ashamed of herself. Gloria still knew on the inside that she was perfect and loved and she held that knowing close. On the outside, as much as she could, in order to keep herself safe, she pretended to be ashamed of herself, she pretended to be a bad girl.

More years fly by and with those years the knowing on the inside of being perfect and loved faded and withered until Gloria finally knew beyond a shadow of a doubt that she was less than perfect and undeserving of something as wondrous as love. She completely forgot she was just pretending.

More years, much painful separation from feeling the truth, sometimes more painful for knowing with the mind but still not able to feel with the heart the truth of being perfect and loved…and grief over something unknowable and unnamed that is lost. And yet and yet...

Through the years since the indoctrination in separation began, there were light filled moments. These moments glimmered like a firefly, making Gloria ask if she really saw what she saw. She knew she couldn't get any crazier than she already was so she decided to answer the call. Gloria yearned to play with that inner light. And play she did until every waking moment was taken with her yearning to play with what she now knew was her own light.

And as the light grew shadows emerged seeming to mask the light. Joy and grief, grief and joy, joy and grief. The light grew, the shadows came clearer and bone chilling deep down and dirty clearer. Joy grief joy grief joy grief! And yes, anger at having been betrayed from the inside out.

The day Gloria woke up to the fact she was pretending she remembered a cartoon quip she'd seen the day before...it went something like this:

A five year old child is being given an exercise in using your imagination by an elder. The child is told to pretend to be in a room full of ferocious lions who are going to bite you and then asked what she's going to do. The child answered, I'd stop pretending.


Mother Divine I know that You were here helping uncover this pretense. I know too Mother that You are helping me remember from this moment, forward and back through the timelines and dimensions that I am and have always been perfect and loved. My hands, feet, heart and soul yearn to serve to this message of Divine Love from the Mother. So be it.

November 28th 2010 by Anne Cressy


When I started writing this piece I used my name. About halfway through I saw that almost any name could be inserted. This is dedicated to Gloria Rivers.

A Certain Honesty

"This isn't a journey about becoming something. This is about unbecoming who we are not, about undeceiving ourselves. In the end, it's ironic. We don't end up anywhere other than where we have always been, except that we perceive where we have always been completely differently. We realize that the heaven everyone is seeking is where we have always been. Once again, what is required is a certain sense of honesty."
~ Adyashanti ~
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I recently encountered one of the ways I have been deceiving myself, silly rabbit. I discovered that the walls I built around many of my gifts as a means of preventing criticism or judgment from reaching me had also prevented me from being present to the loving support that was also always available. Amen

Jigsaw Puzzling

I’ve discovered a metaphor that helps me bring the concept of Oneness with All Life to a manageable size:

I am a giant jig saw puzzle while I am also a single piece of the jigsaw puzzle.


The energetic framework that we’ve lived within for thousands of years, a patriarchal framework has been dismantled and is no longer functional. While many of us are not consciously aware of this energetic shift, we sense through our bodies that the playing field has drastically changed. Men and women alike sense the shift. While women are feeling the shift as a call to new understandings about their feminine selves, men are being called into their hearts that they might support women as they shift back into the energetic driver seat that is our birthright. Women are being not only called, but commanded by Life to stand in their power as women.

Humanity has been preparing for this shift in the ages for centuries. Now that it is upon us we discover that we aren't clear about how to navigate within this new energetic soup that we’ve conjured up. The vessels that we “drive” no longer respond to the old maps that we’ve navigated by, the pathways we formally traversed have morphed into something other. The old picture that came on the outside of the puzzle box showing us what the puzzle could look like no longer applies. There is no box much less a picture. We are explorers in the finest Star Trek tradition of our inner worlds instead of the outer world.

How each of us expresses this shift is unique, we are totally individual puzzle pieces. Unless your puzzle piece is called seer or mystic most of us individual puzzle pieces have no clue what the “big picture” is. The puzzle pieces need to be gathered together before we can catch even an inkling of what the big puzzle looks like. To bring the metaphor into living terms I find that when I’m in a circle with other women, each there to share their unique puzzle piece I get a feeling for and knowings about the “big picture. I find when I listen to others describe their puzzle piece position my piece of the puzzle is fleshed out. The aha moments that come as I listen complete me and I feel like I’m finally home in a world of experiential Oneness, a giant loving jigsaw puzzle.

A Pile of You

I haven't posted anything here yet this year...and I feel this piece by Jennifer Louden articulates exquistely what's up for most of us.




A Pile of You
by Jennifer Louden


It is time.

You are ready. This time, you mean it. For real.

You are ready. You are shedding, dismantling, unbuckling, discarding: identities, accolades, glories, web stats, even your most treasured bio.

Impressive, glittery, sacred: past.

Scars, wounds, failures, shames, dents: they must go, too.


You unbuckle the past slowly, swearing to yourself, softly, repeatedly, “I am ready, I can do this” even as bits of you cling to your fingers.

Disrobe, unwind, unburden.

A pile of you forms on the shore of your future.

The water of the unknown laps at your feet, caresses your toes. So clean, so promising. You are almost naked, almost emptied, almost ready.

Then a thought: wouldn’t it be a good idea to hold on to just one wafer thin bit of you?

After all, like the Egyptian Pharaohs, you will need things on the other side. Maybe not 10,000 nubile slaves or a clay jar with your preserved heart in it but it shouldn’t hurt to take just one, or maybe five, of your degrees with you? Certainly the Oprah appearance would be useful. And being the youngest person in your organization to ever run a division, don’t leave that. And your divorce and bad investments and the semi-abusive relationship - you aren’t really ready to let go of those.

It would be silly to leave all of you. You might get cold. You take back more slivers of your identity from the pile. You worked so hard for them. Especially the stories that gouge and pinch and humiliate.

You put a few bits of you back on. Now you’re ready to dive in, the water looks so fine.

What’s this? You can’t swim. You can’t even float. You are sinking.

Your toes touch the soft, silted bottom. You panic, claw at the water but no matter. You don’t move, can’t move: sunk.

You know what you have to do. If you are honest, it is only because you will drown that you do so, but to your credit, you do it (many would rather drown). You cast away all of who you have been, these last most special and hurtful flecks, remembering, at the last moment to say thank you.

Thank you for it all.”

You find — you have no idea how — you can breathe underwater now. (Maybe it was the thank you?) You can’t see very far in front of you, only a few feet, so you move slowly, as if in a dream. Come to think of it, maybe this is a dream and, any moment, you will wake up. You will be who you are, or were, or always thought you should be. You fantasize about how good that will feel, the known!, and then, shit!

You are smack, stuck, back on the bottom, in the gloom. Unable to move, although thankfully, still, able to breathe.

You sigh and watch the bubbles streak upwards. It seems that holding on to anything here does not serve.

You concentrate on the feeling of the water passing over your skin, on the cerulean blue patch right in front of you, on the rise and fall of your chest.

You take a tentative breaststroke forward. And then another.

A Root Chakra Journey: Getting Real About Oneness

Looking back I see that the first months of dancing and feeling into my base or root chakra I barely felt the connection to the Earth energy that we were being invited to experience. I could see the facilitators’ intent reaching down to the to Earth, I could see/feel her pulling that Divine Feminine life force into her own body; when I imitated her movements I knew I was experiencing only a small part of what I witnessed. My body desperately craved more. I knew that if I kept moving and calling and breathing I would connect deeper until the experience was authentically mine, not the mime.

With hindsight I see too much head and not enough groundedness: so much denial of self, a refusal to witness and accept my own need to feel/be part of a tribe. I can hear myself saying over the years that I needed to be a contributing member of humanity. What I remained clueless to was that my humanity was a nebulous over there, anywhere but here where I am humanity. This masked the pain of feeling ostracized by tribe and was felt/expressed as an unrelenting desire to be seen, to be heard, to be special. That need couldn’t be met. I couldn’t hear or see me for me either.

The first time I witnessed my resistance to tribe or community was October 2008 when our facilitator expressed her joy at having the dance tribe gathered again after a hiatus. I could feel her genuine joy against which I found I felt not a drop. That got my attention as it coincided with a discovery that I had been disrespecting and disenfranchising myself from the political sectors of society.

The memory that came up dancing root chakra first day of the retreat was the story Mom told of how when the nurse brought me to her in the hospital she denied that I was her newborn baby because I was too beautiful. Whether I felt the abandonment as a newborn or not, every time I heard the story during my childhood I felt abandoned by the story, not loved and special as Mom intended I feel. Mine are all the classic reasons for avoiding the tribe, fear, distrust, anger/rage, betrayal, this lifetime, other life times. Too, I see now that I lived many classic symptoms of an under active/over active root chakra, with poverty consciousness at the top of the list.

I did not sleep well the first time I participated in a Kundalini Trancen Dance. After three nights of not sleeping well at the retreat, I knew I needed to ask Leyolah for help. I also shared about the newly awakened pain in my left hip (feminine side), a pain that had also come up the first time I danced, a pain I thought I had danced through.

As she laid her hand on my hip she suggested that I needed to focus on grounding myself well and thoroughly before going to bed. As she spoke the words I felt their truth. She instructed me to find the ecstasy in my legs. As she said that I realized that it was true that the goose bumps that for me often signal the ecstatic state never covered my legs, only my torso, arms, neck and head. As I retrieve this memory by writing these words I remember the need to focus on bringing the ecstasy down into my legs these next weeks and months. (I felt goose bumps down my legs at the height of our dance last night. (Dec.8, 2008) Yes, yes, yes!)

During the sixth day of the retreat, when my room mate was pulling out early, the old feelings of not being worthy and being abandoned and betrayed came up full tilt boogie. In the context of the retreat I was able to witness yet experience the grief and anger without getting enmeshed in the old story. I am not a five year old girl, I choose to be the grown woman experiencing another grown woman making a choice that went against the grain of the group. I was able to confirm my initial congratulations to her about her courage to face and make her difficult decision. I did not in the least loop back into my old story of abandonment and was grateful for the validation of my good health as it were, by the whole experience.

I found my little girl, rather she showed up one day this week as I was distilling my experiences with root chakra. In feeling into her, around five years of age, I remembered the anguish and loneliness of not feeling supported, nurtured, loved. I remembered the feeling of not belonging where I was, of being called a bad girl when I knew I was a good girl. I remembered pining for my real family to show up. I remembered meeting my first girl friend the first day of school. I felt I had found a family member. At six years of age, we walked to school together, holding hands, promising we’d marry twin brothers so we could stay close. We named our children. I remembered her death three months later. I remembered being beaten and told to forget about her when I expressed my grief. I had to stop being a good girl to forget her, which I did. I began cracking into pieces.



No matter how clear in my head I was or am about my Oneness with all of Life, as long as the sludge of unresolved “scar tissue” resided at my energetic root chakra I was unable to fold all of humanity into my heart or to use Leyolahs’ words “ecstatically embody the fullness of our Oneness”. Without owning tribe I remained always outside Oneness, separated as it were by divisions within self and unable to truly ground myself. As I explored root I found I had really let parts of myself take up space outside me, forming a mini tribe of parts and components of myself to take up the space left void and empty without an authentic love connection to tribe. No wonder no joy.

Separation beliefs begin in our core/root chakra. For years I didn’t make the connection between using politics, politicians, doctors, lawyers, teachers and such, all part of our/my larger community/tribe as scapegoats in the blame game and the separation ideology I knew needed undoing. My attitudes and beliefs toward sections of my culture have come up to be peeled away steadily this year. It began with committing to meeting with women in sacred ways regularly, which led to the Kundalini dance circle. The dance cycles have insured that the layers of the onion in my being called social conditioning keep coming up to be seen for what is real and released if need be.

My original attraction to the dance came with an unparalleled conviction that I needed the grounding that this work offered as a counter weight for the heady, third eye meditation service with the Vessels of Peace. For me, after years of building an energetic sludge to the dynamic life giving Divine Feminine energies by disrespecting my physical ancestors feminine legacy, it feels perfect to dedicate myself to clearing those blocks/bricks through the cleansing connecting breathes between Mama Gaia and my root chakra. I am made whole and complete in this practice.



If we as subtle activists are to fulfill our creative potential as activists, a journey through our subtle or chakric body can serve to build parameters within which to better utilize the potential of that subtle activity.

Reflections from THE AWAKENING RETREAT Nov. 2008

I thought I was going to dance when I left home ten days ago to attend Leyolah Antara's "Awakening Retreat". Now I can say that I returned last night from a journey to answers to my question of how I can bring Heaven down to Earth.




I've long dreamed of peace of Earth. Most wishes I've sent to the universe have had peace at their core. I've cultivated peace in my own life that it may ripple outward. I felt that I needed to dig deeper still into myself to find a way to bring this wishful dream of peace more down to the Earth. I know now that when I was strongly called to attend the retreat, it was the answer to how to deepen my peace. What appeared on the surface of things to be a my free will decision to go dance for eight days was as much or more my answering a call that sounds from Leyolahs' Heart to serve humanity at this time in our awakening. Twenty two women and two men were there answering the call that rings out from Leyolah's heart to be in a "timeless" service to all of Life, from the horrific or mundane to the ecstatic Self of humanity.





Leyolah lives her teachings. She embodies the Divine Feminine of a Thousand Names. She is a model of how we can, through our very bodies, raise the vibration rate of a humanity in dire need of these tools. Through dance movement, breathing, our voices and meditations we were slowly, gently, but ever so inexorably inspired to experience our ecstatic potent selves. She and her facilitators loved us and loved and loved us...until we loved ourselves.

My eternal thanks to Davina for enticing me to dance through her beautiful embodiment of this work and for introducing me to her teacher. More eternal gratitude to Leyolah for being who she is, for diving into her visions of humanity and having the amazing courage to live her dreams and share them with us.


Here is one last picture of the tribe...can you see the outline of a heart that the bodies formed?

I will share more when the words have sorted themselves out. In the meantime for more info about Leyolah and her work:

http://www.kundalini-dance.com/


P.S.
Happy Birthday Dad! I burnt the onions this sacred day in your honour. Thank you, I love you.

Summer Solstice - Peace in the Water

Prayerful intention for ‘Peace in the Water’, June 20th, 2008.


I close my eyes and Breathe,
Breathe In and Breathe out,
Conscious Breaths filled with my intentions of Peace.

I open my eyes this day and remember that Peace is my choice and my gift.

I send my Hearts deepest Gratitude to the Waters of our planet.
I intend now that all the waters of our planet are healed, clear of any disharmony and vibrating in the highest frequency of Peace and Oneness.
I intend that all creatures of the Water are safe and being honored by our tribe known as Humanity.

I see the whales, the dolphins and all creatures of the Ocean swimming freely, in clear pure oceans. I honor our Sisters and Brothers of the Seas and remember that they are a part of our Earth family, our global tribe.

I am grateful that all Humans awaken to the interconnectedness of life and now act from a place of honoring all life.

I fill myself with Gratitude and send this vibrational song into the waters of our planet, into the Oceans and to all of life that lives within the Water.

I remember that I am a creator and I choose this day to create Peace in the Water.

I close my eyes and Breathe,
Breathe In and Breathe out,
Conscious Breaths filled with my intentions of Peace.

I am Grateful that there is now Peace in the Water.

So Be It.

By Nikita Gearing ~ www.nikitagearing.com

Turn Inside...and Dive!

About two months ago I heard about and visited a Kundalini Dance workshop being hosted in Powell River by Davina Bailey. I was so smitten with the dance that I invited Davina to hold a weekly workshop in my home for the Woo Woo Club...which has been wonderful. Last week while sharing about the processing work that had come up for each of us Davina shared this piece she wrote when her daughter was born...and I asked if I could pass it on. Davina didn't have a title for the piece so I've called it...

TURN INSIDE...and DIVE!

i can hear and see
the victim in me
as i speak and express
my history
i flinch as the words roll out of me
do you see
and hear it too?
as i speak of others
my reflection shines true
my projections are clues
i stand tall now
and take responsibility
i strive now
for a new vocabulary
steady and ready
i watch for this character
i stand centered
and poised
to catch and examine her
to release and make space
for this new exploding ace
i trace a new circle
layering higher
from end
to beginning
i walk this high wire
this balancing act
my focus and priority
this internal process
so very extraordinary
i'm ready to learn
i yearn to see clear
to hear from inside here that soft guiding voice near the surface of choice that dear friend from that
place that is beyond space to you or me
i turn inside
and dive
dive
more deeply
riding waves
entering caves
exploring the light and the dark
this eternal maze
crazed
with doubt, with courage, with fear, with strength, with awe, with love, with tears
i hope and i pray for peace to be found
inside
and out
each world
scream and shout
STOP!
drop everything and stand still just for a minute
can you feel your heart beating
your breath breathing with it
to live beyond my control
to release myself to it
feel the connection to all
and rise up to greet it
this human race
it's a race that we're in
we need to redefine
or better yet
scrap that word
and put another one in
how about
human
human being
yah!that's it!
we're being human together
not that other racing bullshit
competing and pushing
and winner takes all
fuck that i say
and together lets fall
back
into being
human beings
that's all
FOLKS!

For more info about Kundalini dance here's the website of Davina's teacher...
http://www.kundalini-dance.com/

The Path of Healing the Heart of Our H-EART-H Begins Within

Our Prayer Shawl Weavings meditation this full moon evening of April has taught me, more precisely, deepened my feeling of how the path toward healing the Heart of our Earth begins within.

We’ve received guidance from Spider Woman to focus on communion, communication and community between North America and Africa. The silent meditation began with a gossamer thread leaving one continent to the land on the other.It struck me as simpler to nudge the two continents together with my minds eye, to lay the way they once lay cradled together. When the shores touched I felt the good and strong medicine of the African continent being drained away into the other continent. I felt that we need to acknowledge, honor and consciously incorporate that medicine into our daily lives as part of the healing process on the African continent itself. We can give back and close the door that was ripped opened and has continued to bleed the African magic. (Many expansionist countries (too many to name) in the last centuries appeared to be only draining Africa’s physical resources…my feeling in this meditation is that we were ignorant/skeptical of the real power that we were draining away.)

Spider walked into my vision of the cradled continents and led me onto the African continent. She introduced me to one of the many small creatures that represent an embodiment of the Divine for the First Peoples from around the world, this one the Preying Mantis of the Bushmen of the Kalahari. Spider Woman showed them sitting together at a council fire, sharing boney stories. Spider Woman and Preying Mantis gave me a feeling that they are waiting for us, holding space for mankind that we may pick up and carry ourselves as who We really are, magnificent and powerful Creators.

Then I saw people walking. I saw the lines of light we create and leave behind ourselves. I saw those lines of light creating webs. I saw that we can intend to heal a weaving around the world with every foot step we take. I felt that we need only be mindful of this ability for it to be effective.

So be it.

A Cosmic Burrito from Gaia

To further open your Eyes of Soul:

Close your physical eyes to connect with the light of your inner SELF. Find the Three Fold Flame in your heart, your ATMA of Wisdom, Power and Love, and gently breathe into it to gradually expand its glow.

As the glow expands, it enters and opens your High Heart, which is just above your physical heart.

FEEL your High Heart. With a calm, steady breath join you High Heart with your Third Eye in the center of your forehead, by further increasing the glow of your ATMA.

FEEL the peaceful emotions within your High Heart expand into your Third EYE, your “Eyes of Soul,” as you activate your higher brainwaves. It is these higher brainwaves that can maintain a calm mind and peaceful emotions.

Now, OPEN your Third Eye and “blink” a few times to clear its multidimensional vision. With this multidimensional vision, see both your inner and outer worlds, overlaid one upon the other. Realize how the two vibrational realities co-exist in the same space/time. In one world your “problems” are being enacted to coerce you into change. In the other world, your “problems” are illusions trying to CATCH your attention.

Through you Third Eye/Eyes of Soul, see your challenges as illusions that YOU have created to awaken your SELF from a long slumber. Now, see the planetary problems as illusions that the Collective Consciousness has created to initiate a Planetary Awakening.

Release the CHARGE of ALL these challenges by thanking them for the education that they have offered.

First, bless your personal tribulations Good-Bye. Give them each a final hug as you forgive them, and forgive yourself for having them. Then, forgive humanity for the conflicts that the Collective Consciousness has created.

Bathe your person problems in Compassion and Acceptance, and allow your Soul to “find the solutions.” Remember, what is impossible for your ego, is simple for your Soul. Then, bathe the entire planet in the same Compassionate Acceptance.

Know that problems, actually the illusion of problems, are a component of the 3D Matrix. ACCEPT, and be COMPASSIONATE for your earth vessel self so that you may understand, love and forgive the vehicle for any difficulties it has caused you. Realize that this vessel has afforded you the great honor of being incarnated on my planet during this marvelous time of transformation.

ACCEPT and be COMPASSIONATE for the Collective Consciousness, and all the discord that “others” have caused you. UNDERSTAND that “problems” are an integral component of the 3D Game. With this awareness, you can more easily neutralize your emotional reactions with your Divine Love and Forgiveness. You, and the Collective Consciousness of Earth, have created, precipitated, perpetuated, or allowed conflict from your child/ego selves. The solutions will be found by your adult/Soul SELVES.

Even though the 3D Matrix is based on growth through resolution of conflict, YOU have grown beyond the need for that type of learning. YOU are ready to learn through REMEMBRANCE; remembrance of who you are, and who you have always been, as well as remembrance of your true HOME, which YOU have never left.

With this remembrance, you are ready to blend the two worlds by downloading your higher frequency fifth dimensional HOME into the lower frequency reality of the third dimension. With your Eyes of Soul, see the higher frequency world in gold, silver, aquamarine, magenta, red-gold, and indigo-violet, and the lower frequency world in red, orange, yellow, green and blue.
Blend the two realities by integrating the higher vibrations with the lower ones. In this manner, the higher vibrations are TEMPORARILY lowered, but the lower vibrations are PERMANENTLY raised. Your two worlds have now become ONE, just as you and Planet Earth have become ONE.

Thank you for your service. Every time you heal your self with your SELF, you heal my planet as well. Most of all dear ones, remember that YOU are changing, and YOU no longer need to learn through conflict. You are ready to learn and grow through Divine REMEMBRANCE.

Awaken to your true SELF, Beloveds, and I, GAIA, shall awaken with you.
Buddha was asked, “Are you human or Divine.”
He replied,
“I am AWAKE,”

AWAKEN NOW!
The dream is over.
The flower is blooming and the new day is here—INSIDE of YOU.
Therefore, open your heart, my dear
The anchor within it weighs heavy
With the barnacles of many
Ages of submersion
To sail into the heart of the ONE,
The anchor must be raised
Know that as the anchor
Rises to the surface,
All the secrets that have been
Locked deep inside will be pulled
Into the Light of Day
Can you Love yourself?
Can you Accept yourself?
You have hidden your true self
In order to maintain the
Illusion of who you wanted to be
To raise the anchor in your heart
Means to know who you ARE
You are prepared for misery
Are you prepared for Joy?
You are prepared for heartache
Are you prepared for Happiness?
You are prepared for darkness
Are you prepared for the Light?
What if you opened
The rusty old chest that you had
Kept secret all your life
And found that it was filled with Gold?
Can you face NOT that which is wrong,
But instead that which is already Perfect?
You have met your Demon
It is time NOW to meet your Angels
In this moment
You are perfect
And live in the lap of Love
You do not need to DO
You only need to ACCEPT
Allow my words to float
Deep into your heart
I love you unconditionally
And desire to
Share my Soul with you.
Only LOVE is real.
The rest is ALL illusion!
In loving support,

Your partner, Gaia

from Suzan Caroll at

www.multidimensions.com.

Women Healing the Earth

I want to share with you, this link to an audio clip titled Women and Healing the Earth, that I received recently. It’s an excerpt from a talk given by the well-respected Sufi teacher and author Llewellyn Vaughan-Lee:

http://www.goldensufi.org/MP3/australia_NZ_2007/Women_and_HealingtheEarth.mp3

This man speaks with an emotion that equals my own...an amazing listen. Enjoy!

Don't Buy Into the Global Warming Trap

This is long, but every word ran with truth for me...confirming much of what I've seen in meditation. I've accompanied this piece with a discrete picture of naked people on Wreck Beach in Vancouver...it felt a perfect way to express some of the joy I've experienced thanks to Turtle Mother.

Global Warming-The 9th Dimensional Pleiadian Collective

Greetings dears.

We are very happy to have the opportunity to speak with you again. “Global Warming” has been discussed for approximately the past 25 to 30 years because you have seen a shift in your weather patterns, a shift in the temperature of your global climate. But to tell you that this is caused solely by man’s use of carbon dioxide is erroneous. It is a fallacy. “Global Warming” is one of the largest illusions, one of the largest lies, that is being perpetrated at this time.

For those of you who are new to our communications, let us start at the beginning. Earth is beginning her transition from the third into the fourth and eventually the fifth dimension. The fourth dimension is more of a transitory space for Earth and humans to adjust to the new higher frequencies. It is not unusual for a planet to ascend. Just as humans realize they’ve learned about all they can from an experience and must move forward, so do celestial bodies. But what is unique is that the celestial body Earth will be making that transition along with her inhabitants. As we always like to say, we don’t know exactly how this will play itself out because it’s never been done before. You are taking your emotional body from the third to the fourth dimension, bringing with you all unresolved issues to clear and process. We are very excited to see how you do with the challenge.

Climate changes are not all that uncommon with the transition of a planet. As it transitions, it receives instructions from its central star. Each star is like a metronome, keeping the rhythm and pace for celestial bodies as they move through grand cycles of development. But the Sun herself is going through many changes, preparing to shift her frequency as well. And with the chaotic flow of new frequencies entering and old patterns passing, there is a disbursement of energy. As more energy is disbursed from the Sun, more heat is directed to Earth, which in turn affects her balance. Along with this comes increased overall temperature. It is a signal to mother Earth that it is time to move forward.

While we tell you that many of the changes are caused by the increased solar activity, please note it is not the only cause. There have been numerous experiments by your governments which have caused major imbalances and created dramatic displays of nature’s force as Mother Earth attempted to re-established balance. From our higher perspective, we see these experiments too as part of the learning process which allows Earth and her inhabitants the opportunity to grow. With the ever changing and shifting of your foundation, comes the ability for you to release the old and build anew.

As we have spoken to you before there are other beings who are manipulating many of the global events to meet their own agenda. We are speaking of the Anunnaki. For those of you who are unfamiliar with the Anunnaki let us say that they too are playing their part in Earth’s ascension process. They have donned the role of the darkest of dark and you have agreed to assist them on their journey back to source. It is not our intention to create fear in you. We only wish to awaken you to the game in which you are playing, unaware of its existence. For once you know the game and understand the rules, you can have a bit of fun.

As with all games played by the Anunnaki there is a thin line being walked. While they highlight “Global Warming”, they also highlight the need for you to be more mindful of your connection to the Earth. Knowing this, they play upon solutions that do not reconnect you to the planet energetically. Their solutions play on your fear and provide you with a false sense of action. A perfect example of this would be compact fluorescent light bulbs. Fluorescent lighting is very hard on the human body. It impacts your higher brain functions. The disruptive wave of the light is not in harmony with the frequencies of your bodies and creates disruption in your central nervous system and blocks proper neural functions. While presenting you with a “solution” to “Global Warming” they are able to further their own agenda and disrupt your connection to source and planet.

You currently exist in a perceived world of lack, and it is a mindset that is being perpetuated. We want to make you aware of this. We want to get you familiar with these patterns that are blatantly presented to you, to the point where they are becoming transparent. The ultimate goal here of global warming and the notion of eliminating CO2 levels is to expand your nuclear programs, to build more nuclear reactors which will be touted as an alternative energy source. This is the agenda that is going to be pushed. We want to make you aware of that as well because nuclear reaction is not the answer.

Every world that has ever utilized this technology has found that it is destructive. The use of this technology, this knowledge, in the 3rd dimension is not healthy, not in harmony with the human species.

Nuclear power will be pushed because it is a strong energy source, one that the Anunnaki have been able to refine (such as it can be). They still have not learned to live in balance with a celestial body. This is a lesson you, humanity, will teach them. Remember what you learn here in this process of clearing and ascension will be etched in the history books of the universe so others may learn from your experience. As we have said before much of this universe in not a “free will” zone and with the end of this grand cycle and the mastery of balancing duality in 3d, many worlds will learn and grow in ways that are not normally available to them because they are “closed” systems.

These master lessons are transmitted holographically.

The Anunnaki work with nuclear reaction to generate enough energy to create energetic portals. This allows them the ability to access other worlds and to communicate with other systems. Remember, they have become so entrenched in the dark energy of separation that they cannot access information as you can when you open to light and love. They only have access therefore to lower level information. Levels of information are restricted by emotional bodies. The frequency of the emotional body can unlock the “vaults” as it were to the Hall of Records. The accessible information is appropriate to their spiritual development.

Think of it this way. They are not tall enough to reach the books on the top shelf and there is no ladder. They must grow first, and then they may get it off the shelf. It is all part of the universal game. Rules and regulations are set up for each “playing arena” and certain skills must be acquired before you get to move on to an advanced game. It is all illusion and all set up to learn about variations of experience, to learn of self.

It is important at this time that you begin to look at your connection to all living things and how you utilize the natural resources of the planet. Are your habits in harmony with Mother Earth? Consumption of natural resources is not the cause of a toxic world. The toxicity is created when you are not consuming in balance with other living creatures.

We tell you from our multidimensional perspective that there are unlimited resources of abundance. But your current perception of reality says there is limitation and lack. As you begin to enter into the multidimensional perspective you will begin to see that the most toxic “chemicals” you subject the Earth to are your emotions. The war you create is absolutely devastating. The more anger, fear, and hatred, the more limitation and lack you create. That is far more damaging to the Earth than any chemical you could pump into the air.

As you question the best method to heal your planet, know that perceiving your world as toxic and working externally keeps you in the 3rd dimensional mindset. Until you begin to see the situation from a multidimensional perspective, you will remain on the treadmill forever striving for a goal that is unachievable. And it is unachievable until you can shift your perspective and see that the Earth is a reflection of you and you begin to heal yourself. When you understand that Earth is simply a reflection of your inner emotional state as a group, as a mass consciousness, you can change the toxicity of the Earth by changing the toxicity of your own body. Currently, there are many beings on your planet who are quite ill and Earth is a reflection of that. You are holographic in nature. What happens to the microcosm happens to the macrocosm. Or simply put – as above, so below.

It is also important that you begin to see your world as flourishing. She is teeming with new life and opportunity. It is vital that you see her as healthy and in a state of growth rather than something that is ill that must be fixed. This notion of illness can be very detrimental to the psyche of the planet. The more you think of Earth as a toxic world, the more toxic a world you will create. You create that which you are focused on.For those of you who stubbornly defend what you are being sold, let us suggest this. Investigate what other scientists are finding. Research the story you are being told and see who prospers from your deception. We tell you, you are being controlled and manipulated as a group. You plainly see what is happening with your Earth, but because you have yet to fully embrace your power as a species and have forgotten your ability to create, you look to traditional answers and for someone to solve the problem for you .

You think you are just one being and how can your opinion matter? Well it matters. It matters a great deal. Once you understand that it is you who have created a toxic world from your inner emotions you can heal it by working internally. If 144,000 out of the 6 billion of you can see this and make a change, you can create a new template for others to follow and will begin to see a change in the planet.

Yes, each of you matters a great deal…

Many well wishes, dears.

http://www.higherfrequencies.net/global_warming.html

A New Wavespell Begins

Using the Dreamspell Calendar instead of the Gregorian this is what we call and how we guide this day.

Sunday Electric 22 Blue Magnetic Monkey

I unify in order to play,
Attracting illusion.
With the magnetic tone of purpose.
I am guided by my own power doubled.

"Here is the `other side' of the center. Magnetic Monkey as the `other'
centerpiece of the Tzolkin reveals to us the inherent nature of the
universe, at least from the Mayan perspective. You get to make up what
you believe, and how many giggles you are going to fold into your
daily adventure. Your purpose here dear heart is to have as much fun as possible, and to unify with the great smiling intelligence of the universe. It is not a bitter or wrathful place, but a dynamically changing and surprise filled basket of wonders. This very matrix of the Tzolkin, once I discovered that love and play are at the very center, and nurturing essence and enlightenment are at either end of this cycle, I was hooked, line and sunk, deeply into the Zuvuya, the stream of consciousness that makes up the planetary and divine mind/soul".

In lak'ech!
la monkeyscribo
from Consciousburrito@yahoogroups.com


In order to facilitate the end of time into now or no time for humanity en masse, and for ourselves as individuals, we do well to take this simple habit into our daily lives. Today is the first day of a new wave spell and I feel like a child in a brand new candy store with numberless confections before me that is a delight to behold.

Blessed be

The Dreamspell Calendar

I created a series of these glass on concrete for the garden, all abstracts that felt like they are their own universes. I'd like to put some of the crop circle symbols I've seen into this medium.

A fascinating old/new concept came under my radar a few months ago. There is a stone Mayan calendar decorating the wall next to where I sit typing. Court brought it back from the Yucatan fifty years ago. It was one of the few decorative items in the house when I moved in that didn’t end up at a garage sale. Like everyone, we’ve wondered what it really means, and how much credence to give those who claim it spells the end of time.

It was the words “Dreamspell Calendar” in a piece I was reading that started the search. I found that “a Dreamspell is "any agreed upon belief system which creates a continuing state of consciousness."

While I’ve long become accustomed to the idea of time as an illusion I’ve never spent any time studying how we spend time right now. The Gregorian Calendar that we keep time by descends directly from a Pope Gregory in the fifteen hundreds. Pope Gregory tweaked the Julian calendar that was imposed as law by Rome in it’s heyday upon her subject states. In effect, we continue to live under a law enacted two thousand years ago by a conquering nation, Rome to keep it’s subject states subjugated. And we’ve lived this way without question.

During my studies of the First peoples from around the world, from the Kalahari Bushmen to our Native American tribes I found many common links. Taking dreams for real is one and the thirteen moon lunar cycle another. I often wondered what North America would have look like now if the Christian Blackrobes had accepted the formation of a rainbow bridge between cultures rather than imposing Christianity. Now I’ve learned it wasn’t just the Christianity that conquered this continent…it was also the imposition of the Gregorian calendar.

Which brings me to that fascinating new understanding of the Mayan calendar and it’s prophecy about the end of time.

“We are now at the end of the Dreamspell of history (time) and at the beginning of the Dreamspell of galactic culture. This means that we are coming to the end of the belief in the male dominant, warrior hero, fear and separation paradigm. And we are preparing to move into the love based, artist hero paradigm of natural time. All we have to do is change our view of time and open ourselves to the love that is inherent in us all.

Time is both spiritual and physical simultaneously. This is why it is the 4th dimension. It serves to bridge between the physical and spiritual because it operates within both.

When we are born we are not asked what calendar we want to use. We simply have one imposed on us by the people who have come before us. Time is a mental concept in reference to the way we perceive it. We simply have to change our minds and time will change. In fact, it will revert back to its natural state. This act alone will begin the movement of our culture back into harmony with nature”.
For more information a link…
http://www.lawoftime.org/2012/13step-peace.html

An Expanding World

One day in August of 2005 I started googling some of my favourite authors and found online communities, (like support groups but different) that had gathered around these authors. Today I participate in two forums, one called the Sacred Forum organized around author Lynn Andrews Medicine Woman series (all women) http://www.lynnandrews.com/forum.html and the Reconnections Yahoo Forum organized around the channeled work of Daniel Jacobs. http://health.groups.yahoo.com/group/reconnections/

After spending months of excellent reading on the Reconnections website I noticed that DJ did personal readings. It was during that reading DJ suggested that I (we all) develop an online presence by way of exercising the new wings that we’re sprouting these days. I was thinking about this last night and felt I needed to send a shout out to DJ saying thanks for the good counsel. As well I want to share a recent transmission that came through the Reconnections and can be found, with tons of other helpful information, on that website. http://www.reconnections.net/index2.htm


"An Expanding World"

"As Heart Energy expands, the vibratory pitch of your planet will rise. If your physical vibration reaches a certain level, and your body remains intact, pre-designed software programs will install themselves, and begin working within your consciousness. These programs are sourced from a balanced mixture of "mind and emotion," though it may not seem so. For many of you, the expression of emotion seems quite foreign. In fact, it's downright scary! The opening up of these energy centers will make some of you feel as though you're going crazy. In truth, you are simply being reborn--pecking your way out of the ancient, primordial "egg." You're not cracking up, you're breaking out!

The outworking of this process will look different for each person. Its effects,however, will be quite similar. Some or all of the symptoms of Global Acceleration Syndrome may be in effect. You'll go to doctors, and they won't know what to tell you (unless they are opening up in their consciousness as well). If you can get relief by visiting doctors or other health care practitioners, do so. Everything about this unfoldment is timed. Let your intuition tell you which counsel to follow, which treatments to allow. Avoid applying labels to your condition, even though doctors tend to do this. Seek help for as long as you feel you need it, and then let it go. We are speaking about NEW BIRTH here, not diagnoses and treatments. All disease processes are Gateways to Transformation. When a newborn babe is ready to come forth from the womb, all restraints to that process are thrown by the wayside. All you can do is let it happen!

http://www.reconnections.net/three_commitments.htm

The Three Commitments will be of great help to you during this time. Follow them as far as your heart takes you. Stay Free, Stay in the Moment, and Follow Your Energy. You are now, or soon will be connecting multidimensionally. Each moment is a world unto itself. Though it seems to belong to some pre-set sequence of
past-present-future, those images and memories are only there to embellish and stimulate that moment in a particular direction. They give color and texture to your NOW, like frames give character to the pictures that are hung within them.

Each sequence of events that is started in the Now Moment will be completed, somewhere within the Multiverse. You don't have to fret that efforts will be wasted, or friendships will be lost. It all goes on, and expands into every destined end. Just keep your eye on the next step, and let the Multiverse handle all the details. There is a place in the Multiverse where you will be able to review every possible/probable sequence, in detail, and find out how all the story plots work out. It's all there for you, when the timing is right.
Trust that, and learn to let go."

Companion of my Heart

This outpouring of love was written by a Sister in the Light and friend Amberwave and is a small part of a healing dialogue that has come up between us. It is an honour and a privilege to share this blessing from the journey.

Sisters
dear companions of my heart
feel the depth of my love for you.
I feel the depth of yours for me,
like clear waters you hold a mirror for me
laughing, smiling, teasing,
holding secrets together,
talking, whispering, taunting,
competing, crying, hurting
exchanging through loving glances
meandering through life
knowing
myself through you
trusting
my steps will gently hit the ground
because you walk there too
you walk ahead in illuminating spheres
another time next to mine
may your path always be sacred
and your heart always feel
my abiding love
the holy ground we shared
makes all things possible
between us
forgiveness
joy
peace
and many more walks together
A~HO.

Turtle Medicine

I read Lynn Andrews' Writing Spirit last winter. Ordinarily I speed read, and then return and reread a book. This book slowed me to a page or two a day, otherwise I couldn’t hear what she was saying.

To begin with I was intimidated by the idea of identifying my writing ally or animal totem. I have walked with a myriad of earth’s creatures, winged ones, four leggeds and water beings. How to find the one specific to writing? As well, I love to write and the idea of finding a guiding writing totem now had an emotional attachment, had become important. This I know is the best way to get in my own way. Instead of muddying the waters wondering, I let the want to know go. Occasionally my thoughts circled the question, nothing came and I made no effort to penetrate.

I stumbled across my answer. I waited before speaking that I might sit with the feeling of Cosmic Turtle as my writing ally. I was and am in awe of this totem. There is no possibility of hiding my light from myself when I look in this mirror.

I haven’t returned to Lynn’s book Writing Spirit for guidance or validation. Yet. I feel the truth. The signs have been there. Now I fathom the irresistible urge I followed years ago to carve a swimming turtle from soapstone. I never carved before or again.

Turtle characteristics include: (from the www.geocities.com/~animalspirits/ website)
Symbol of the earth
Connection with the center
Navigation skills
Patience
Self Boundaries
Associated with the feminine
Power to heal female diseases
Respecting the boundary of others
Developing new ideas
Psychically protecting oneself
Self reliance
Tenacity
Non violent defense

I honour and welcome these aspects. I am humbled by the magnificence of this ally.

I am honoured to share this sacred space with you. My spirits rejoices at having a community with whom to share, a community that dares.

Bear in The Blueberry Patch

This picture, (I didn't take it) captures the spirit of this little teaching story.

When Grandmother eased her shoulders and cocked her head in just that way, everyone quieted knowing a story had been sparked. When Grandmother heard this story she had been a girl at the knee of her Grandmother who spoke out of a distant past.

Then, more than now the tribe had followed the rhythm of the seasons, moving winter camp from inland closer to the continental waterways with their thousands of islands full of ripening huckleberries, strawberries, and blueberries. As they had traveled they crossed paths and joined forces with other tribes heading for the Lakes in the Woods and the Numberless Islands. Blueberry Island was renowned among the islands covered as it was half way around with a skirt of blueberries from crown to shore. On a hot day the smell of ripened blueberries reached Great Sky Spirit.

Little Star was holding herself away from the picking women, not joining the chatter, finding the edge of the ring of women as they moved along the hillside. Her sisters and cousins had been snubbed in their efforts to include her and they thought her not worth their efforts. The elder women recognized the signs of a woman who had thrown herself away.

Little Star was the beloved only child of an elderly couple who had filled her every wish. As she had grown toward womanhood she knew little of self discipline often drawing the disapproval of the grandmothers. Her beauty and gifts of spirit, including a genuine kindness, insured that what her parents couldn’t bring to her, she brought to herself without thought about what was for the good of the whole.

It had started at the last camp. Little Star had wanted and found she could not have the host, a handsome warrior and man among men Moves The Wind. When Little Star at last understood that she would not be having her way she was shocked and hurt. That was when it happened; Little Star saw herself hurting out of deep and true love forgetting the twitch between her legs that had initiated this incident. The willfulness that her parents had applauded turned itself on Little Star creating a cloud of discontent over she who had everything. The gregarious good natured self involved young woman was replaced by a discontent self involved young woman.

Though Little Star picked blueberries in body she was lost in thought of ways to get her way. She knew she had hurt her cousins and friends and she held herself away telling herself they knew nothing of her pain. As she moved along she was oblivious to the new and obvious signs of broken and trampled blueberry bushes. Before a warning shout could fly from eyes to the mouth of the nearest woman to witness, a She bear stood on two legs and grabbed Little Star in a bear hug, shook her as if to awaken her, and then let her body drop to the ground.

The picking women had not collected themselves to respond before the She Bear stepped away from the cliff edge where she had been cornered by Little Star and returned to forging as if she had been there first. And so it was. Little Star crawled back to the ministrations of all her relations wearing a new scar on her forehead that her ancestors wear to this day.

It was long moments after grandmother stopped speaking, during which many blueberry stained hands surreptitiously reached to forehead, before grandmother broke the teaching spell she had wove, with a chuckle.